Butterflygirl20

Hello everyone!

Wow, it's been a long time (AGAIN) that I haven't gotten onto my account I've just been so busy with the same thing I've been going through. It's even gotten worse and gonna have my 7th surgery soon as soon as the doctors set a date for it. Plus going through a lot of other things But one good news is that, I GOT MARRIED!! YUP! I tied the knot of my fiance of 5 years But it was only the court wedding so he can be officially here since he's from Canada :3 But we will have our BIG wedding this year in sometime November But here's a picture as promised of how we looked that day!



Another thing, something I wouldn't have done of doing EVER, I've moved accounts. I thought about it's time for a new change since new things are happening so I hope it's a good choice I'm making I'm not gonna link my account since there's some haters sometimes around so if you wanna get my new one, please note me and I'll link you ASAP! Also, even though it STILL might take a long while, please comment if I owe anyone anything so I can keep it here as a reminder since I noticed notes kept piling up and when I thought I could save all of them on a wordpad or a note on my laptop, it crashed and I lost everything So it would REALLY be helpful! I improved a bit on my skills or what I consider an improve as before. But I'll let you be the judge of that whenever you guys see my new gallery And I will also keep everything in my gallery as well so no worries on that!

Thank you for always supporting me on here and never giving on me!! I love ya all!!

Hey everyone!

I just wanna first off apologizing for not being around as much as I've wanted to be. I've been...depressed than ever since a lot has happened since last time I've been here. Including basically losing a lot of close ones to me, especially my best friend. And other drama occurring in my life that has made me more stressful. It also didn't help me considering my illness tends to act up when I'm stressed too so its just been a nightmare

But, I do have some good news...sort of. I finally found a doctor has described my everyday pain for 2 years PERFECTLY. But....he's suggesting it's the pancreas in my body. And he's only done 3 surgeries in that area before. Plus being that I COULD get worse if it doesn't go well since its really risky. So I've been deciding to go through with it or not since its not a guaranteed thing. But hopefully I can decide whether to experience it or go to another doctor....again.

I also wanna say thank you to you all for the Happy birthdays I've gotten from all of you. It honestly made me so happy to see so much love and support during my special day. It really made me smile and a bit tear also. Thank you for being such wonderful friends and lovely watchers to me. You guys are amazing. Please never change!!

I've been trying to do more commissions of the ones I've owed and also the art trades/requests as well. I hope to be done with them in the next months so please bare with me more. You guys have been extremely patient and I'm so grateful to you because of that. Thank you so much!

I've also made another side account to get away from everything. It's mostly role-playing into those group apps I've seen people been doing and doing side drawings. If any of you want that account to keep in contact, even though I'll still check in from time to time here, let me know in a note and I'll send you the link

Thanks again for everything, everyone. You guys are awesome and I promise to pop in from time and time again

Today, I officially bought my wedding dress at David's Bridal! I had no idea I was gonna go there and actually find a dress that I wanted! I had originally just wanted to see the dresses and try them on to get a good idea but things took a turn for the better haha. My bridemaids, my mom, and my mom's friend had came along with me there to check them out and be my lovely audience to tell me which dresses looked right. The first dress I tried on brought such tears and joy to everyone! I had no idea anything could do that to them at all. It utterly shocked me but when I turned to look into the mirror, I just fell in love with it entirely. I did try on a few more dresses after but in the end, I had gotten the first dress! : )

Now, I would post pictures of the dress BUT my fiance does rarely check Deviantart so I don't wanna take a chance of him seeing it so I'm gonna have to hold back until the big wedding day to post photos of the dress. But I think it'll be worth the wait to see the dress PLUS my fiance and our entire bride maids and grooms men.

Another update on my condition, its STILL not going the best sadly. I have two large lumps still on my chest, I have a cyst, I have very low potassium which can be dangerous because of my former surgeries, I had very low blood pressure, blood count was abit low, and just other things. Also, another doctor told me that he couldn't do anything for me anymore. So it makes him doctor number 5 that's told me they can't help me with my every day pain I've been enduring for 2 years now. Its beginning to be very frustrating and hopeless, I will admit. But I will continue to do the best that I can.

But other than that, that's pretty much all the updates I wanted to share. I wanna continue to tell you guys again, thank you SO SO much for being there for me throughout all of this. I hope you guys are all doing well and enjoying life to the fulliest! : )

....Yup, this girl right here! :3

Despite me being really ill still and PLUS I have a lump on my chest that they don't know whether its cancer or not since it does run in my family, my love of my life of 3 long years has finally popped the question!!! He had asked my mom for her blessings and we waited until the right moment to announce it to our close ones so I thought today, the day of the announcement, will be a good time to tell you all. Cause you, my lovely watchers and friends, mean alot to me and sharing this special moment with every single one of you makes me the happiest : ) We also haven't set a date on when the wedding is (Either May or October) but it will be this year!

Thank you all again for supporting me through everything I've gone through the years until now. Love ya!!

Hey guys! :3

Well, I know its been awhile since I've updated since my surgery has happened so I thought I would do it now ♥♥♥ I recovered from the surgery itself but just barely now. BUT....I'm still not better from my everyday pain : / It seems that surgery didn't help me for the pain but they did find what they were looking for inside of my stomach by taking that piece out along with some other things. I'm sorry I'm not getting detail on it. I guess I get weird by getting too personal about what kind of surgery it was but I think maybe when I get more comfortable about it, I'll open up more to you all cause that's what you all deserve by being so supportive and wonderful throughout this entire ordeal : )

Today, wasn't exactly the greatest since I got bad news again that feels very frustrating to me to a point that I broke down in tears, thinking I was never going to get better since what the doctor told me was so blunt but I gotta still have hope that things are gonna be okay. I gotta go to some other doctors at another hospital in Hollywood since this certain doctor only specializes on my condition. I don't know what else is gonna happen and I pray things don't go worse or getting ANOTHER surgery but I have faith that things will be okay. I mean, bad things can't last forever right?...

Anyways, I'm okay just a tad to draw at least abit more here and there from the surgery. I am still how I was before so its gonna be really slow when I do art trades, birthday presents, or anything else I plan on doing. I just hope you all continue to understand my situation cause I honestly HATE being late on the things I owe to people or making people unhappy of the promises that I give. All I want is to make all of you happy and I'll do my best at what I can.

I just wanna thank each and every one of you for being there for me. I'm sorry I couldn't answer to the last journal cause at the time I was in SO much pain from the 6 holes I got in my stomach but I just wanna let you know that I cried with tears of happiness cause seeing all of you care about me and support me just means the world to me. All of my friendship with all of you means more than any treasure and I can deeply say that from the bottom of my heart. I love ya all and thank you for everything!